Hi, I am new to these boards and my name is Anne. I began recovering memories about 4 years ago; prior to that I had no conscious knowledge of having been abused. I spent 4 years on a couch trying to heal, and while I won't discount the benefits of that, Reiki has really taken my healing to a new level.
I joined a Reiki healing circle 2 months ago. All that day I spent trying to prepare for admission to a 30 day in patient facility, figuring out who would watch my child and how my husband and I would pay for it. I didn't think I could live with the pain anymore and I couldn't allow it to continue to affect my family the way it was. That night was my first circle and my husband insisted I go, even though I didn't think I had the functioning capability to drive myself there, never mind go through something new.
Well, I went and I was amazed. Even though I had gotten Rx for antidepressants that same day, I decided not to fill them. I continued to go week after week, and one week I met my inner child on the table and wept. The next night I had a healing dream where I basically told my inner child she was going to be OK and asked her if I could do Reiki on her to heal her. She said yes and I woke the next morning feeling better than I ever had in my life.
I am greatly simplfying my experiences with Reiki here for the sake of brevity as well as my lousy typing skills. I have to say it's taken my healing to levels I never thought possible. The good news is that blocks I've felt for years have dropped away and I've been enjoying a life of fullness and richness I never thought would be possible for a survivor like me.
The last thing that has helped while I deal with pain is a saying that a spiritual teacher of mine told me that I will share here:
"The caterpillar, as it starts to break free from the crysilas, thinks that it is dying. It is its struggle against its perceived death that gives it the strength to break free, a beautiful butterfly."
I try to remember that when the pain gets too bad - that it is my struggle to break free to the other side where I hope to be an instrument of healing to the others suffering from the same issue. Feel free to remind me of this on the days I post out of despair, though, OK?!
Wishing us all love and light in our journey to wholeness.
Anne
Last edited on Tue Sep 16th, 2008 04:11 pm by AP319
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