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adrienne
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Posted: Mon Jun 25th, 2007 05:43 am |
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I lie in bed waiting, anxiously dreading
the much needed sleep which evades me,
And I am grateful even as I am frustrated.
With sleep comes the dreams -
Horrible scenes that never go away.
Insistently hovering at the edge of my subconscious -
Waiting for my surrender.
Waiting for my acceptance.
Exhaustion decides the battle and sleep carries me away,
Back to the haunting memories of my childhood.
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Katieishealing
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Posted: Thu Sep 20th, 2007 07:56 pm |
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Oh wow this really, really spoke to what I'm experiencing now thank you so much for sharing.
Kate
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Posted: Sat Sep 22nd, 2007 04:45 am |
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thank you - i'm sorry that you are going through that, though. hang in there! after 20+ years of horrible cycles of nightmares and insomnia, i think my sleep is finally sorting itself out. interestingly enough, i began to notice the improvement after i began journaling and writing down (and sometimes sharing with someone else) the nightmares and other junk that i have always struggled with. i also worked really hard to try to schedule my life around my erratic sleep habits instead of constantly fighting it. i don't know if that is possible for you, but getting rid of the frustration and anxiety was a HUGE! relief and really helped take my stress level down a few notches.
i'll keep you in my prayers...
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Katieishealing
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Posted: Sat Sep 22nd, 2007 03:58 pm |
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Hi there  thank you for your thoughts on it all! I know it's true, I find that writing it down and expressing it to another person really helps to take some of the power away from the nightmares, does that make sense? I just grow so tired of them. It seems like for the last 20 years I've been plagued with nightmares almost nightly. More so since starting therapy on this topic. It took me almost a year to even think about talking with her about the abuse. So now we're 17 months into this therapy thing and I'm not even sure where it's going or what we're doing... it seems like such a struggle only to feel badly still.
Kate
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Posted: Mon Sep 24th, 2007 03:28 am |
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| I've been sleepless for a long time. I started to write about what was on my mind when I couldn't sleep. After a while I would just get up and do work. I didn't plan on sleeping until I was too tired to sit or stand. Slowly I did manage to return to a better sleep pattern. I found an excersize routine also helped.
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